Saturday, May 05, 2007
and i am gonna ignore u forever
not u, in case u're wondering.
just some other friend that i knew, whom broke the promise, forgot the deal, and left me alone. (not the person i m referring to for the past many posts btw)
why, must people make people cry?
why, must people make people give people false hopes?
why, must people make hopeful people hopeless?
why, must people make happy people upset?
why, must people make fun of people?
why, must people make judgement on people based on looks?
why, must people make joy out of people's misery?
Tell me. why.
watched spiderman 3
not bad. but the sound blast was horrendous.
the plot kinda sucks but the rest are okay.
and i've recently started to like have 5 songs randomly chosen from my ipod list of songs. and listen to the lyrics and everything.
and i pick out those that explain how i feel, since i m not good in words.
try guessing which songs i am refering to. and yes, majority are stefanie's songs.
1. 最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答, 我不要你的承诺不要你的永远, 眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
2. 我忽然非常想念你, 你的离去就像刺青永远烙印在我的心, 一次又一次的灰心才发现早以麻痹
3. 强忍着泪水的眼睛, 表演不在乎的一出戏, 其实我只是输不起, 先开口的人算不算不争气
4. 有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰,心暖了又灰, 梦作了又碎我们有几次机会, 爱又稀少又昂贵
5. 感觉不到你才知道丢了自己,谁陪过我无声哭泣在我最糟的夜里,我不知道如何再爱
Yanzi Fan enough?
answers will be listed below after another round of emo posts by me. =)
but seriously, i hate being alone.
i dun want to think and reflect on my past, and present myself.
i have been leading a live far away from my ideal one.
the one that i told everyone that i like.
i dun want people to dislike me, but somehow, people do.
not that i want everyone to love me, but i just dun like the feeling of being hated.
i do blame myself.
i have a deep sense of guilt and remorse.
and i hate putting on the mask to school everyday and changing to another at home and finally removing them when i am alone.
it's tiring.
what's Life.
with CHEATS, HATERS everywhere.
i dislike them. a lot. really. they make me what i am today. they control my emotions. they are the one u love and yet hate.
i m really feeling terrible deep down.
i want people to know.
and yet i can't show it.
that mask of mine is there forever.
Stuck.
i need a break.
from everything.
i wanna mug. and mug and mug.
i want to get all As. not possible for my PW and H1 Chinese i know. but i will try, as hard as i can, to achieve that ideal life that i want.
and also
i WANT my yanzi 改版CD. who will buy for me?
take it as a present for a pathetic being living in some small island of the cruel world.
take it as a thing to shut this complaining person's mouth up.
take it as a present for him, for you never know, it might be his last one.
the answers are here!
原来你什么都不想要
安宁
坏天气
同类
我不爱
ivan, i wanna be myself. he dun wanna lie.
and he hates jerks and liars. irony.
IVAN stepped on your garbage at