Thursday, May 31, 2007
原来这是你给我的答案.
我明白了.
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Thursday, May 24, 2007
somehow. ivan thinks that he is wierd.
but a happier person now thanks to the many people he know. =)
but somehow, tmr is chinese paper and GP paper, and the runway.
stressed man. so this post is short. and sweet.
just like ivan :)
ivan- off to sleep.
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
somehow. emo cells in my body work very well.
as recently, i wrote this emo stuff. not say poem, not lyrics. just some stuff. haha
as follows.
And I always remember the times we date
I love you is what you will always say
I still remember the days
We sneaked out at night and star gaze
But things didn’t work our way
And then it extinguished our love flame
I had to shoulder all the blame
All because of me is what you claim
I promised you that I could change
To fit you into those things that you craved
I’ve always believed in fate
Hoping a better future we can create
And then life after the break
It will never ever gonna be the same
The smile of mine will still be fake
And I continue to live in a daze
And I never forget the promises we made
But it turned out that somehow we did break
I dun want you to hate
I just wanna make you stay
Maybe u will choose to come back someday
Back to my side I will always pray
But when I see you with your new found date
A big frown just added to my face
No longer am I your slave
Now alone hiding in a cave
Waiting for you to save
But you never came
关于我们的未来还不确定
还未做出任何决定
你默默无言一人离开屋顶
肯定了我的伤心
我黯然回到房间里哭泣
想你刚给我的最后表情
回想当时给彼此的约定
再看一看已遗失的感情
原来分手是两个人的逃避
面对这种难题也只能回避
没有勇气向困难前进
爱情让人失去了理性
让人从梦中清醒
我只想再牵牵你的手而已
求了好久好久你才肯答应
你走后客厅变得特别安静
思念也会让人失去了自己
遗忘的是那时的美好回忆
热恋的我们爱得难以置信
我记得怎样写你复杂姓名
但随爱情走后都已经离去
我们都不必受悲伤的委屈
好像一片云在天空飘浮着
忘了寂寞的太阳会不快乐
你也这样的走了
我也无能选择
爱得那么狼狈, 我们都很累
为你掉的眼泪也都只是废
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Thursday, May 17, 2007
it's been 2 years.
anyway, this song just kept repeating over my head.
probably the song that concludes how i feel. =)
又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱
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Friday, May 11, 2007
i hate people who are in the wrong.
dun bother to apologise.
and yet blame other people.
and i m not listing names. just saying
in general. =)
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Wednesday, May 09, 2007
nothing much had happened over the past few days
had investiture. and ya.
not surprised that i din feel much since we're not so close as expected. so ya.
i'd rather gossip =)
and that yanzi CD is still not out yet.
WTH.
k
nites.
ivan-wierd.
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Saturday, May 05, 2007
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and i choose not to believe again.
for i had patiently waited every morning for that same sms.
seeing you happy makes me smile. a weak one.
wishing i am the one who is there happy with you,
and being the source of your happiness.
true, my departure is your source of happiness.
i love yanzi songs.
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and i am gonna ignore u forever
not u, in case u're wondering.
just some other friend that i knew, whom broke the promise, forgot the deal, and left me alone. (not the person i m referring to for the past many posts btw)
why, must people make people cry?
why, must people make people give people false hopes?
why, must people make hopeful people hopeless?
why, must people make happy people upset?
why, must people make fun of people?
why, must people make judgement on people based on looks?
why, must people make joy out of people's misery?
Tell me. why.
watched spiderman 3
not bad. but the sound blast was horrendous.
the plot kinda sucks but the rest are okay.
and i've recently started to like have 5 songs randomly chosen from my ipod list of songs. and listen to the lyrics and everything.
and i pick out those that explain how i feel, since i m not good in words.
try guessing which songs i am refering to. and yes, majority are stefanie's songs.
1. 最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答, 我不要你的承诺不要你的永远, 眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
2. 我忽然非常想念你, 你的离去就像刺青永远烙印在我的心, 一次又一次的灰心才发现早以麻痹
3. 强忍着泪水的眼睛, 表演不在乎的一出戏, 其实我只是输不起, 先开口的人算不算不争气
4. 有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰,心暖了又灰, 梦作了又碎我们有几次机会, 爱又稀少又昂贵
5. 感觉不到你才知道丢了自己,谁陪过我无声哭泣在我最糟的夜里,我不知道如何再爱
Yanzi Fan enough?
answers will be listed below after another round of emo posts by me. =)
but seriously, i hate being alone.
i dun want to think and reflect on my past, and present myself.
i have been leading a live far away from my ideal one.
the one that i told everyone that i like.
i dun want people to dislike me, but somehow, people do.
not that i want everyone to love me, but i just dun like the feeling of being hated.
i do blame myself.
i have a deep sense of guilt and remorse.
and i hate putting on the mask to school everyday and changing to another at home and finally removing them when i am alone.
it's tiring.
what's Life.
with CHEATS, HATERS everywhere.
i dislike them. a lot. really. they make me what i am today. they control my emotions. they are the one u love and yet hate.
i m really feeling terrible deep down.
i want people to know.
and yet i can't show it.
that mask of mine is there forever.
Stuck.
i need a break.
from everything.
i wanna mug. and mug and mug.
i want to get all As. not possible for my PW and H1 Chinese i know. but i will try, as hard as i can, to achieve that ideal life that i want.
and also
i WANT my yanzi 改版CD. who will buy for me?
take it as a present for a pathetic being living in some small island of the cruel world.
take it as a thing to shut this complaining person's mouth up.
take it as a present for him, for you never know, it might be his last one.
the answers are here!
原来你什么都不想要
安宁
坏天气
同类
我不爱
ivan, i wanna be myself. he dun wanna lie.
and he hates jerks and liars. irony.
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Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Sometimes Love just ain't enough
I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
There's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
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HAPPY Labour Day.
the short lived holiday for everyone right smack in the centre of the week.
why can't they make monday holiday as well?
anyway, ya.
watched nightmare detective.
a lil gross. but still, avg movie.
我们都很累
爱得那么狼狈
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